“Some beautiful paths can't be discovered without getting lost.” -Erol Ozan
“I am no longer afraid of becoming lost, because the journey back always reveals something new, and that is ultimately good for the artist.”- Billy Joel
I have sat here and wondered where this journey started, where it's taking me, and where it's going to end. I question myself on a day-to-day basis. The questions used to be: Am I going to fall in love again, am I going to find my twin flame, am I going to be happy, and I mean truly happy, or am I going to wind up not finding anything, not being successful, and dying a death that didn't matter to anyone, and mainly will I be happy, and successful?
I am my own worst enemy in ways, but my best friend in ways too. Trying to find that balance (knowing that I am an Afghan Vet with PTSD, Survivors Guilt, and Social Anxiety) has been a tough one. I have endured a hard road to get to where I am at today, and believe me, this is only just the beginning of the new day's journey.
I no longer question myself about where I am going to be, or what I am going to do with my life, don't have to. This journey started in Afghan 11 years ago, I was forced to become a man, and wasn't ready to at that point. I have had to learn a lot, trial by error has taught me a lot, and this new road is the greatest road that I have been on. A woman, and elf, found me when I was lost, and blind. She saw through the flaws in me, and has shown me a love that none can find except for 1 time in their lives. Finding that true love isn't easy, believe me, but it is worth it. The journey that you take to find her is rocky, rough, and just all around hard as hell. In the end, when you have found her, that journey is worth it though. This woman has seen something in me that no one else has, and now I get to call her mine. This new day's journey is no where near over, in fact it is just beginning.
Until next week..........
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